Hello all, these past few days haven't been the best. Very tired, and drained, along with some nausea. As some of you know I had to go to the E.R. on Friday. My arm ( not the same arm, this time the right with my PIC line in it) was swelling and we still are not sure why. They did check to see if there were any blood clots, which there weere not. Thank God! Just a wait and see kinda thing,waiting to see if I run fever of 101 or my arm gets red, or swells more! All lovely things.... So far , so good Praise God.
More hair is falling out each day, just waiting on when the day will be here to say "good bye" to the rest of it. Wishing I could sit at the beach listen to the waves, and sink my feet into the sand as I close me eyes and relax. Sounds nice huh! I know there is always next year, but today and this week is "this year", and what I am feeling in "the now".So to anyone that is going, take a deep breath in for me and revile in the moment please... Can't last outside for very long at all these days, it's just to darn HOT! I melt just opening the door. Honestly I'm just trying to get to day 7(after chemo), and trying to keep up with the 2 bible studies I am doing. Both important to me, one being with my small group, the other with my daughter and some other lovely ladies and their daughters as well.
I will say that through this season of life that we are in, I am seeing a side of my hubby that I haven't seen before, our relationship transforming into something that I didn't know it could be. Something even more beautiful! Me peeling away a outer coating of myself that has been hanging on for a while now even years, A part that needed to go . A part that felt like it had to protect ones self,that couldn't be needy, a part that could do for herself, a part called self sufficiency. Just like a scab on a wound that is healing as it is coming off is just like what this feels.You know that afterward there will be a healthy layer under it, one that is restored. Yeah, my Daddy is sure doing some good stuff !
Sorry to any that have called and I haven't responded back. I am just sooo tired and just don't have a bunch in me. I send so many thanks out again for all the loving hands that have been touching my family with love. My kids are greatly appreciating each and every thing. For the loving and inspiring cards that are received that truly put a smile on my face. Thank you... Also to those that I do not know, aww how it touches me! I thank you for your tender and caring hearts. May God continue to pour out His blessings......
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So funny you should write about the beach. Last week when we were there, I was thinking a lot about you and about those days (long ago) that you and I were to dead fish just going with the current :) and how much has changed over the years for the 2 of us. I took it all in and buried my toes while praying for you my sista.
ReplyDeleteI truly believe that everything in life happens for a reason, know matter if we know it or not.
I'm so glad that God put us together when we were little tad poles and then brought us back together through this crazy Facebook world.
I'm praying for you everyday!! And next year when you get back to the beach bury your toes and think of me my friend and the dead fish we no longer are!!
Love you Kristi...
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