Hello all, these past few days haven't been the best. Very tired, and drained, along with some nausea. As some of you know I had to go to the E.R. on Friday. My arm ( not the same arm, this time the right with my PIC line in it) was swelling and we still are not sure why. They did check to see if there were any blood clots, which there weere not. Thank God! Just a wait and see kinda thing,waiting to see if I run fever of 101 or my arm gets red, or swells more! All lovely things.... So far , so good Praise God.
More hair is falling out each day, just waiting on when the day will be here to say "good bye" to the rest of it. Wishing I could sit at the beach listen to the waves, and sink my feet into the sand as I close me eyes and relax. Sounds nice huh! I know there is always next year, but today and this week is "this year", and what I am feeling in "the now".So to anyone that is going, take a deep breath in for me and revile in the moment please... Can't last outside for very long at all these days, it's just to darn HOT! I melt just opening the door. Honestly I'm just trying to get to day 7(after chemo), and trying to keep up with the 2 bible studies I am doing. Both important to me, one being with my small group, the other with my daughter and some other lovely ladies and their daughters as well.
I will say that through this season of life that we are in, I am seeing a side of my hubby that I haven't seen before, our relationship transforming into something that I didn't know it could be. Something even more beautiful! Me peeling away a outer coating of myself that has been hanging on for a while now even years, A part that needed to go . A part that felt like it had to protect ones self,that couldn't be needy, a part that could do for herself, a part called self sufficiency. Just like a scab on a wound that is healing as it is coming off is just like what this feels.You know that afterward there will be a healthy layer under it, one that is restored. Yeah, my Daddy is sure doing some good stuff !
Sorry to any that have called and I haven't responded back. I am just sooo tired and just don't have a bunch in me. I send so many thanks out again for all the loving hands that have been touching my family with love. My kids are greatly appreciating each and every thing. For the loving and inspiring cards that are received that truly put a smile on my face. Thank you... Also to those that I do not know, aww how it touches me! I thank you for your tender and caring hearts. May God continue to pour out His blessings......
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
Update
Just received a text from Kristi - no blood clot. They are sending her home. She said they are planning to keep an eye on it - wait and see. Thanks for all the prayers!
Urgent Prayer Request
Please be in prayer for Kristi. I just received word that she's in the ER with some swelling in her arm. The doctors are doing an ultrasound to see if it is a bloodclot, possibly related to her chemo treatment yesterday. I will update as I hear more.
Thank you for your faithfulness in prayer!
Missy
Thank you for your faithfulness in prayer!
Missy
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
New Update
Hello to all!
I know I haven't written in a while, and sorry about that, but I have been pondering stuff and looking at what will possibly be "normal routinage" and what not so normal, gazing @ what God is doing in my life and the lives around me through this and aw struck by it.
Last treatment went fine and I was sick the day of chemo and that following Tuesday, and some weird mouth soreness & sensitivity. Food tasted weird during the first few days and with the soreness ya don't feel like talking much! I had a reaction from the lunasta shot I had to get from my lovely friend Wyana (love you ;O) ) and that felt like braxton hicks when ur prego ! Aches in my lower back/hips/legs in my bones... Which only lasted 3dys PRAISE GOD! haha Then like clock work on the 7th day, I started feeling little more like myself! Each day better and better until yep! treatment day which is this Thursday (round 3). The days and weeks seemed blurred all together, just glad my heads connected to my body these days lol! I have noticed my hair thinning these past few days, which is not noticeable to some, but I can def. notice because my hair was THICK... So I have been praising God for a little extra time that I have with hair on my head. Not really too worried about it leaving me anymore, and thinking of all the ways I can sport the bald head. Anybody want to join me in the "bald head movement"? I think that could be great fun! haha
They might try this new patch on me that helps with the nausea for 5dys, so we will see.
God is so good! Do you realize how good He is? I can not formulate words to describe how captivated I am , how enamored I am by Him... I pray you take the time to look and see, not just in the big things, but in the little things as well. We take so much for granted each day, each moment, and blow off so much as coincidence. Pry your eyes open, make every minute count, live like today is your last, touch someones life, give our Father the praise He so deserves.... LIVE OUT LOUD! I saw a billboard on a church this weekend and it said "Only dead fish go with the current". What I read in that is a reminder: "we are called to be set apart, different from the world not rolling with it".
I look forward to the end of this because I know my Father is doing great things in me, things that needed some tweaking. I know I am not gonna be the same person that started this voyage. Neither do I want to be.... God has placed some amazing friends and family in my life to pray with me in this, to walk this out with me, to send me little "I love u's" on my text, love to my family, cards in the mail, messages through facebook. They are all noticed, deeply appreciated, and much needed. I thank God for each one of you, and pray blessings over you and yours. As much as you might be inspired by me and what I am going through, I am inspired by your heart and actions. Love is a powerful thing, it's the greatest gift.
Hope all are having a beautiful day friends.
Psalms 107:9
For He has satisfied the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things.
I know I haven't written in a while, and sorry about that, but I have been pondering stuff and looking at what will possibly be "normal routinage" and what not so normal, gazing @ what God is doing in my life and the lives around me through this and aw struck by it.
Last treatment went fine and I was sick the day of chemo and that following Tuesday, and some weird mouth soreness & sensitivity. Food tasted weird during the first few days and with the soreness ya don't feel like talking much! I had a reaction from the lunasta shot I had to get from my lovely friend Wyana (love you ;O) ) and that felt like braxton hicks when ur prego ! Aches in my lower back/hips/legs in my bones... Which only lasted 3dys PRAISE GOD! haha Then like clock work on the 7th day, I started feeling little more like myself! Each day better and better until yep! treatment day which is this Thursday (round 3). The days and weeks seemed blurred all together, just glad my heads connected to my body these days lol! I have noticed my hair thinning these past few days, which is not noticeable to some, but I can def. notice because my hair was THICK... So I have been praising God for a little extra time that I have with hair on my head. Not really too worried about it leaving me anymore, and thinking of all the ways I can sport the bald head. Anybody want to join me in the "bald head movement"? I think that could be great fun! haha
They might try this new patch on me that helps with the nausea for 5dys, so we will see.
God is so good! Do you realize how good He is? I can not formulate words to describe how captivated I am , how enamored I am by Him... I pray you take the time to look and see, not just in the big things, but in the little things as well. We take so much for granted each day, each moment, and blow off so much as coincidence. Pry your eyes open, make every minute count, live like today is your last, touch someones life, give our Father the praise He so deserves.... LIVE OUT LOUD! I saw a billboard on a church this weekend and it said "Only dead fish go with the current". What I read in that is a reminder: "we are called to be set apart, different from the world not rolling with it".
I look forward to the end of this because I know my Father is doing great things in me, things that needed some tweaking. I know I am not gonna be the same person that started this voyage. Neither do I want to be.... God has placed some amazing friends and family in my life to pray with me in this, to walk this out with me, to send me little "I love u's" on my text, love to my family, cards in the mail, messages through facebook. They are all noticed, deeply appreciated, and much needed. I thank God for each one of you, and pray blessings over you and yours. As much as you might be inspired by me and what I am going through, I am inspired by your heart and actions. Love is a powerful thing, it's the greatest gift.
Hope all are having a beautiful day friends.
Psalms 107:9
For He has satisfied the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Quick Note from Missy
Hi! I know many of yall check Kristi's blog daily, so I wanted to let you know that I'll be on vacation for the next week. I spoke with Kristi this morning, and she's sounding very good! If anything happens over the next week that needs to be posted here, she'll call to let me know and I'll find a computer somewhere. Otherwise, we'll have an update for you in about a week. Thanks so much for your faithfulness to pray! Be blessed!
Friday, June 12, 2009
June 12th update from Kristi
Hello all!
Yesterday's chemo went fine, but just like last time I was sick afterward. My car ride home is 2 1/2 hrs, and I was sick the entire way . Today has been a bit better, but still nauseated. Looking back at last time, it seemed to be the same, just a bit sicker yesterday. I guess if I have one really yucky day, there's not much to complain about is there! Really not up for the small talk today, or computer but wanted to fill yall in! Prayers for sickness to dissipate is greatly appreciated. Hope all have a blessed day! Love sent!
P.S. I did have to go to the Business Center yesterday and will have to meet with them in July to talk about how much I can pay monthly. Prayer for discernment, and financial provision in this.
My life is priceless, and I know this is going to be a large some of money when it's all said and done. I again am placing this in my Big Pap;as hands..... I can not worry about that (the $) , I have family and friends that love and support me and my Father who is carrying me through this. It reminds me of "footprints in the sand"....
Yesterday's chemo went fine, but just like last time I was sick afterward. My car ride home is 2 1/2 hrs, and I was sick the entire way . Today has been a bit better, but still nauseated. Looking back at last time, it seemed to be the same, just a bit sicker yesterday. I guess if I have one really yucky day, there's not much to complain about is there! Really not up for the small talk today, or computer but wanted to fill yall in! Prayers for sickness to dissipate is greatly appreciated. Hope all have a blessed day! Love sent!
P.S. I did have to go to the Business Center yesterday and will have to meet with them in July to talk about how much I can pay monthly. Prayer for discernment, and financial provision in this.
My life is priceless, and I know this is going to be a large some of money when it's all said and done. I again am placing this in my Big Pap;as hands..... I can not worry about that (the $) , I have family and friends that love and support me and my Father who is carrying me through this. It reminds me of "footprints in the sand"....
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
June 10th Update from Kristi
Job 26:14 "These are some of the minor things He does,merely a whisper of His power.Who then can withstand His thunder?" Be in awww of God , inspired by what is going on, and what is to come! ;O)
Today went really well! I met with my Dr, and I did find out that my white blood count is a bit low already, so I will hv to give myself a shot 24hrs. after chemo. No biggie.
I ran into the girl from last time today (the one that her husband lost his job) and her name is April. Now we know who to pray for, "The King family". She is so sweet, and we hung out there for most of the day. She had already went down and got her wig and so we went down to get one for me as well! It's too funny, we were trying them on and laughing and ended up getting the same one. My husband chose me to be a brunette instead of a blond, surprise surprise! ;O) I'm thinking I might be a wig wearer on Sundays and date nights with my hubby! haha , we will see! Hair is still very "there" on my head.... I know April wasn't placed in my life by chance, and I told her there are people praying for her. She has 3 children, 6,3, and 8months and I found out her sister lives in Mississippi and hasn't seen her in a few yrs, and her mom is in prison, not much family around. She is involved in her church which was nice to hear, and they have been helping with the comings and goings to M D Anderson (they live 5hrs. away). So please continue to pray for them, she has stage 4 non-Hodgkin's cell.
I have my second chemo treatment tomorrow @ 10 and they are giving me some different meds along with it to help with nausea. I am feeling really good and ready for tomorrow and what it holds.
I sit in aw with everything God is doing in our lives, all the many blessings He is pouring out onto my family and I. I never thought in a million years that something like this would happen and I would be happy about it. He is filling me with peace, peace beyond what my mind can comprehend.... Love, His love, I am seeing in a total new perspective. I know that who I was at the beginning this, I am not going to be in the end. My Father is my potter, and I am the willing clay, the clay that He has been shaping and molding for a few years now. Clay that is taking shape into what He sees as beautiful, a masterpiece in the making. He has said I am chosen, He calls me His own, I am created in His imagine, uniquely wonderfully made. My daddy loves me, and I am only getting a glimpse merely a whisper of it. I am rejoicing for my situation that I am placed in, and can't even imagine what the end holds, but my eyes are fixated there and there they will stay.
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Today went really well! I met with my Dr, and I did find out that my white blood count is a bit low already, so I will hv to give myself a shot 24hrs. after chemo. No biggie.
I ran into the girl from last time today (the one that her husband lost his job) and her name is April. Now we know who to pray for, "The King family". She is so sweet, and we hung out there for most of the day. She had already went down and got her wig and so we went down to get one for me as well! It's too funny, we were trying them on and laughing and ended up getting the same one. My husband chose me to be a brunette instead of a blond, surprise surprise! ;O) I'm thinking I might be a wig wearer on Sundays and date nights with my hubby! haha , we will see! Hair is still very "there" on my head.... I know April wasn't placed in my life by chance, and I told her there are people praying for her. She has 3 children, 6,3, and 8months and I found out her sister lives in Mississippi and hasn't seen her in a few yrs, and her mom is in prison, not much family around. She is involved in her church which was nice to hear, and they have been helping with the comings and goings to M D Anderson (they live 5hrs. away). So please continue to pray for them, she has stage 4 non-Hodgkin's cell.
I have my second chemo treatment tomorrow @ 10 and they are giving me some different meds along with it to help with nausea. I am feeling really good and ready for tomorrow and what it holds.
I sit in aw with everything God is doing in our lives, all the many blessings He is pouring out onto my family and I. I never thought in a million years that something like this would happen and I would be happy about it. He is filling me with peace, peace beyond what my mind can comprehend.... Love, His love, I am seeing in a total new perspective. I know that who I was at the beginning this, I am not going to be in the end. My Father is my potter, and I am the willing clay, the clay that He has been shaping and molding for a few years now. Clay that is taking shape into what He sees as beautiful, a masterpiece in the making. He has said I am chosen, He calls me His own, I am created in His imagine, uniquely wonderfully made. My daddy loves me, and I am only getting a glimpse merely a whisper of it. I am rejoicing for my situation that I am placed in, and can't even imagine what the end holds, but my eyes are fixated there and there they will stay.
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Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Many Waters Cannot Quench Love
Kristi asked me to post this beautiful note that Stephanie Cherry wrote...
It's late and I just got in from a date with my bestie. I sit here in the Conservatory (I have a Conservatory, funny) writing and thinking. I have a heavy heart watching Kristi go through all of the things that she is going through. Have you ever wished you could throw up for someone so that they didn't have to? Now, I am no fan of throwing up, mind you, but I would do it if I could. I must say to you though...I am praising God for her trials!! I love to watch Big Papa work!! It's a Holy Ghost carpet ride through wonders and beauty. Jehova Rapha has been at work healing relationships and hearts through her struggle. Jehova Jireh has poured out provision. I am grateful that I get to watch. I get a little of the Holy Spirit overflow. I love it.
As I sit here typing away, I am thinking about Hosea. Do you know the story? Love like that is rarely seen these days. Love like that is in books and old movies. That leads me to a question. What moves you? What fills your cup? I want to get to know you. If anything makes you kinder, stronger, more fierce, more passionate, more playful....I want to know what it is. Share.
Many waters cannot quench love;
Rivers cannot wash it away . . .
It's late and I just got in from a date with my bestie. I sit here in the Conservatory (I have a Conservatory, funny) writing and thinking. I have a heavy heart watching Kristi go through all of the things that she is going through. Have you ever wished you could throw up for someone so that they didn't have to? Now, I am no fan of throwing up, mind you, but I would do it if I could. I must say to you though...I am praising God for her trials!! I love to watch Big Papa work!! It's a Holy Ghost carpet ride through wonders and beauty. Jehova Rapha has been at work healing relationships and hearts through her struggle. Jehova Jireh has poured out provision. I am grateful that I get to watch. I get a little of the Holy Spirit overflow. I love it.
As I sit here typing away, I am thinking about Hosea. Do you know the story? Love like that is rarely seen these days. Love like that is in books and old movies. That leads me to a question. What moves you? What fills your cup? I want to get to know you. If anything makes you kinder, stronger, more fierce, more passionate, more playful....I want to know what it is. Share.
Many waters cannot quench love;
Rivers cannot wash it away . . .
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Update from Kristi 6/6/09
Hello to all and I send lots of love and thank yous to everyone.
I must say that the last past 2 days have been better. Which is such a good thing! I will say this past Tuesday, I tried to go outside with Sheth and the heat must have really gotten to me. I say I was out there maybe 10 min. tops then came a major headache and then I got sick. "Note to self : Be careful outside in the heat". This morning I also noticed my fingertips feeling like pins and needles, so I did call and inform the Dr.'s office.
Looking forward to the weekend and a few normal days until the next chemo treatment on Thursday, then 1 cycle will be down! I have been having a bit of what some people call "chemo brain" I guess or "medicine head". But not to bad, and hair is all attached by its own will on my head still Just sporting the new do! . No gluing, Velcro or tape has been needed yet! hahahaha Gotta have some humor honey bunnies! :o)
I am still in aw of everyone and there love for me and my family, not that there was ever any doubt, but I am basking in it and want yall to know how greatly appreciated I am by it all. The cards sent, scriptures written, and text, emails sent, & little love notes of kindness are so much appreciated and help so much on a "not so good day". I have all my cards hanging up in a certain area so that they are seen and easily assessable when in need of a smile or a little love felt. God's timing is perfect, His love measureless and never ending. All consuming Father..... PRICELESS!
I must say that the last past 2 days have been better. Which is such a good thing! I will say this past Tuesday, I tried to go outside with Sheth and the heat must have really gotten to me. I say I was out there maybe 10 min. tops then came a major headache and then I got sick. "Note to self : Be careful outside in the heat". This morning I also noticed my fingertips feeling like pins and needles, so I did call and inform the Dr.'s office.
Looking forward to the weekend and a few normal days until the next chemo treatment on Thursday, then 1 cycle will be down! I have been having a bit of what some people call "chemo brain" I guess or "medicine head". But not to bad, and hair is all attached by its own will on my head still Just sporting the new do! . No gluing, Velcro or tape has been needed yet! hahahaha Gotta have some humor honey bunnies! :o)
I am still in aw of everyone and there love for me and my family, not that there was ever any doubt, but I am basking in it and want yall to know how greatly appreciated I am by it all. The cards sent, scriptures written, and text, emails sent, & little love notes of kindness are so much appreciated and help so much on a "not so good day". I have all my cards hanging up in a certain area so that they are seen and easily assessable when in need of a smile or a little love felt. God's timing is perfect, His love measureless and never ending. All consuming Father..... PRICELESS!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Practical Ways to Help Kristi and Her Family
Good Morning!
The treatment plan is set, the calendar is updated, and each need placed on it has been covered in prayer.
As some of you already know, Kristi is unable to participate in many of her normal activities. Weeding her garden, taking the kids down to the pool, or even being out in the sun for an extended time are things she will lay down for this season. We have tried to be creative with ideas for the calendar that will help the Berry household run as close to normal as possible. Our Father has every one of these requested needs in the palm of his hand and has already been so faithful to meet every single need for this family so far.
Thank you for all the supportive emails, messages, and calls. It is truly an amazing blessing to see such an out-pour of Gods love.
Above all else, please continue to pray for God's hand over them in all that he has planed for them. He will receive all the glory through this journey!
To access Kristi Berry's personal CareCalendar site, visit http://www.carecalendar.org/logon/16169 and enter the following information in the appropriate spaces:
CALENDAR ID : 16169
SECURITY CODE : 6532
CALENDAR ID : 16169
SECURITY CODE : 6532
Monday, June 1, 2009
Update from Kristi - Over the Weekend
Well reflecting back over the weekend...
Thursday was chemo day, and that night I got sick 3 times. My heart felt like it was racing, so it was hard to go to sleep, but I finally did.
Friday I just felt blah, moody, and easily agitated. The doctor sent me home with some meds to help my with nausea and help with sleep as well. My mom and I had to go to 2 classes, and we went home with a bunch of sterile kits for the cleaning of my pic line and stuff to flush the line out daily. Finally we were on the way home! Yes still moody! ;O) There was a young couple that we had been seeing around and in my "bla-ness" the husband asked what stage I was in, since his wife had a arm band the same color as mine (lime green/lymphoma) I said stage 2. From that point on what he said keeps replaying in my mind "His wife has stage 4, and it's in her bone marrow She has Non-Hodgkin's large cell B. They have an 8 month old child, along with 2 other kids that are I think 3 and 5 or 6." They also do not have insurance, and they had been going back and forth with the doctor from where they live for 2 months before finding out. To top it off his job fired him because of how much time he was taking off to be with his wife as she was going through her tests. When you hear something like this, it puts things into great perspective! My heart goes out to them, and even though we may not know there names, God does. please be in prayer for them with me. For them to find out who God is and what He does for His children, for His peace to cover them and His hand carry them, that there finances be provided for, that there needs would be meet. That the find a church home and that they get showered with support and love. Please lift them up in prayer with me...
Saturday felt better, had some rest and had enough energy to socialize for a bit with some friends in the afternoon.
Sunday, extremely tired, nauseated off and on throughout the day, some ache in my finger joints a bit, along with being a bit emotional. Stayed around the house trying to understand my body and track how it is responding to see what is different or the same the next go round. My friend Jaclyn is chopping my hair for me tomorrow (Monday) , cause I found a cut that I like, for a step in transition.... Yes it will be short! Been there and done that before, but it was by choice that time, this time is a bit different! Trying to talk to myself about the visual change that will be taking place very soon, but honestly I know that nothing can really prepare you for this. Soooo doing the best I can do with each day that I am in. So far the feelings of emotions are very similar to pregnancy, meaning the feeling of being on an emotional roller coaster , my mind seems blank a lot of the times & I think that is from information overload. . Please do not think I am complaining, just sharing what is going on with me , since I know some are wondering what is going on and how I am doing. So far not so bad, and resting in God's grace. Hope all had a lovely weekend! Much love sent!
Thursday was chemo day, and that night I got sick 3 times. My heart felt like it was racing, so it was hard to go to sleep, but I finally did.
Friday I just felt blah, moody, and easily agitated. The doctor sent me home with some meds to help my with nausea and help with sleep as well. My mom and I had to go to 2 classes, and we went home with a bunch of sterile kits for the cleaning of my pic line and stuff to flush the line out daily. Finally we were on the way home! Yes still moody! ;O) There was a young couple that we had been seeing around and in my "bla-ness" the husband asked what stage I was in, since his wife had a arm band the same color as mine (lime green/lymphoma) I said stage 2. From that point on what he said keeps replaying in my mind "His wife has stage 4, and it's in her bone marrow She has Non-Hodgkin's large cell B. They have an 8 month old child, along with 2 other kids that are I think 3 and 5 or 6." They also do not have insurance, and they had been going back and forth with the doctor from where they live for 2 months before finding out. To top it off his job fired him because of how much time he was taking off to be with his wife as she was going through her tests. When you hear something like this, it puts things into great perspective! My heart goes out to them, and even though we may not know there names, God does. please be in prayer for them with me. For them to find out who God is and what He does for His children, for His peace to cover them and His hand carry them, that there finances be provided for, that there needs would be meet. That the find a church home and that they get showered with support and love. Please lift them up in prayer with me...
Saturday felt better, had some rest and had enough energy to socialize for a bit with some friends in the afternoon.
Sunday, extremely tired, nauseated off and on throughout the day, some ache in my finger joints a bit, along with being a bit emotional. Stayed around the house trying to understand my body and track how it is responding to see what is different or the same the next go round. My friend Jaclyn is chopping my hair for me tomorrow (Monday) , cause I found a cut that I like, for a step in transition.... Yes it will be short! Been there and done that before, but it was by choice that time, this time is a bit different! Trying to talk to myself about the visual change that will be taking place very soon, but honestly I know that nothing can really prepare you for this. Soooo doing the best I can do with each day that I am in. So far the feelings of emotions are very similar to pregnancy, meaning the feeling of being on an emotional roller coaster , my mind seems blank a lot of the times & I think that is from information overload. . Please do not think I am complaining, just sharing what is going on with me , since I know some are wondering what is going on and how I am doing. So far not so bad, and resting in God's grace. Hope all had a lovely weekend! Much love sent!
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